“ You know that I want to live with you,
But you make me forget so very much.
I forget to pray for the angels
And then the angel forgets to pray for us.
And now I need your hidden love…"
The power of the expressive mind is available in every moment. It was hard to hold my own inner process separate form the powerful social forces swirling around me. The US election was penetrating everyone’s life. Everyone had an opinion. Everyone had a hope and a fear. Some of us had a vision. Some of us were simply angry. Some of us felt dispossessed and cut off from the government. Some felt jubilant and vindicated. Many others felt their country had died. Distrust, fear, blame, shame, disgust, violence, terror and betrayal: so many powerful currents running at high velocity through our social world. The ground had radically changed.
I kept coming back to my personal context: my partner, my family, my friends, my home, my art, and looking for sanity. Looking for the hidden love.
In reality, the petals were falling from the flowers. The fall weather had cooled, and still I had not planted the fall bulbs. I could hardly put the garden to sleep for the winter. I could not bring myself to think ahead. I could not feel any possibility. I could not anticipate the colors of spring. The tulips my friend loves will not grow here. I need to find the hidden love.
My teacher, Chogyam Trungpa, taught us to look directly at what is, thereby reaching for inherent sanity, and releasing the power of compassion. Through our expressive minds, we can heal pain with love, and clarity, and the strength of our human hearts. And we keep on walking, and talking. I bought a huge bag of daffodils and contemplated planting them.
Where is America’s hidden love?
Where is America’s rock?
Contemplating this I watched the frost moon rise over Indian Harbour. The super-moon pulled the tides high on either side of our little island, and outlined the houses by the rocky shoreline. The brilliant softness illumines the homes. It directs my eyes to the waters.
May you all find the strength to seek the hidden love in your worlds and find a ground of truth which you can trust.